The Detectives Haven't Ruled Out Arson

March 5, 2012

Today was the best day of my life.

2:08 (02-13-12)

I feel something inside of me. I feel there is something that the world needs to know. They need to know that i’m completely insane. I can’t sleep, the lack of sleep makes it harder for me to control my feelings. I have to let you know how much you mean to me. I wish it were summertime so I can take you somewhere nice and watch the moon together under a tree someplace quiet. And you could rest on my shoulder and I’d whisper cute things in your ear. I’ve got to let you know now how much you mean to me.

The Present

What honestly is the point of social media? Usually, I enjoy catching up with friends and asking how they are and if all is well and whatnot. but at times..as i read through my news feed and whatever, there are those few instances wherein not all needs to be shared.
The kind of people that make constant posts about everything from tying your shoes to taking a dump because it all needs to be shared. People drain OTHER PEOPLE’S HARD WORK AND CREATIVE ENERGY and made a post about it to exploit themselves to the fake people they couldn’t even stand in high school because they were fake then too but now I want them to see my real talents that truly shine through in my posts like: “Fuck it, Thug life” Truly flocking groundbreaking artistry, amazing shit. And you’ll give up your privacy and freedom to be that fucking ignorant and outright stupid. Switch off Facebook and open your eyes to the real world once again, you might have something to contribute to the world besides cutesie, unoriginal, unpoetical, downright retarded comments about simple day to day events that to any sane person require no detailing or discussion. It’s just Facebook! not a damn priority! I mean, Honestly, when was the last time you watched a sunset or took a walk because you haven’t been as depressed before as you are now? Why do you feel like you hate everyone? WHY are you on Facebook during school & work? is this where your education and tax payer money really black holes?. Outrages claims such as “I lost my girlfriend/boyfriend/husband/wife to facebook.”, “it’s addictive”, “i can’t sleep at night”..people love blaming issues on anyone and anything but themselves. Those who spend time playing games or for whatever reason are “addicted” to Facebook and can’t get away from it, then they have bigger issues to deal with…no normal person will let themselves be so absorbed by something without realizing there is something NOT right about it. It’s just common sense…It’s honestly saddening …what ever happend?

What ever happened to sweet, decent, women who valued their honor instead of using their bodies for attention?

Synthesizer

I’ve been fine. I love my friends and whoever is a part of my life. You’re in it because you wanted to be, and i’ve let you in. There’s no point in blocking people from your life..unless they’re some mass murderer.

I have work in the morning. What the heck am I still doing up.. Sometimes, I don’t know how much more I have to wait. I know you’re busy with your own life, and I said I’d wait for you :/ but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t consider me..who am I kidding…i’ll always be here to talk to you if you want me to.

I day dream everyday the dreams I believe in. I believe one day you’ll be in my arms. To love and to hold. I need to be more confident and write more.

I’ve been writing stuff and today I watched “Yes Man” it made me realise I should change my points of views and say yes and no to certain situations. Sounds corny but I would love to watch it with you :’) .. Oh! And im half way finished with “Hear Me” we should definitely watch that one together<3 ..

Te tengo

No tengo ni idea de cómo explicar lo que siento . Siento un sentido de determinación . Me siento muy feliz . Me siento tan feliz que necesito una manera de controlar el poder de la tremenda explosión de emoción que siento en mi corazón. Esta semana un nuevo reto surge y estoy decidido a superar . Voy a superar todos los obstáculos . Si debo un día caer. Me levantaré una vez más , sanar mis heridas y luchar. Voy a seguir luchando hasta el final .

I wonder who actually reads/stalks my blog..it would be nice to get likes every once in a while. Just saying.

i think im starting to believe in angels again.

My best friend, my reason to become a better person, my muse, but most importantly, my love. It sucks thinking these thoughts & I can’t sleep anymore. Not a goodnight’s sleep anyway.. I just really want to know where you are, how you been, if you had something to eat today, the current colour of your shirt. how your day was. i miss you.

And it’s been a long time since we last spoke..

I just want you to know that no matter what happens & the mistakes i make, i’ll always put you first & get you outta harm’s way. you’re the love of my life.

sleepless (10/9/11) 1:47 a.m.

My friends say that I changed. I don’t know what they mean I still feel the same as I did back then, what’s wrong with them. How am I supposed to live when every waking moment I’m thinking of you. There’s nothing I can do, I take one step and ten steps back. I get nowhere.

I wish I was right there, I wish I was with her. But I know she doesn’t care.

Desde Siempre (10/5/11) 2:52 a.m.

I can’t sleep. Last night there was blood in the sink. Blood from my nose. I can’t sleep. Thinking about you. Maybe I shouldn’t love you. I don’t know how you get into me. What’s wrong with me. I need to sleep…