Weeks after when we met we hardly talked, but when we did we indescribably connected. I felt you knew exactly what I meant. All my life I’ve always felt, I can’t see myself in the future. I felt like I was supposed to die. I never felt like a human, I felt like I was just walking around trying to blend in with the human race. So alone in this town and even out of place in my own body. I still remember how freakishly shy I was when I first saw you. I couldn’t conjure up my words properly and my heart was racing so fast, I swear I could clearly hear it beating. And with every beat I felt as if my heart was ripping through my chest. I was captivated by you. Your presence, the very air you breathed..
Everything’s changed. Both of us have also. Truth is I hate how things have turned out. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be that happy again. If I’ll ever get those feelings again. If I’ll ever feel honestly stable in my mind.
But you made me realize the other side of things. I felt like I was never going to be alone again when I met you. You made me feel like I’m important. All I wanted to say to you is that I love you and that I’ll love you more than anyone else.