The Detectives Haven't Ruled Out Arson

Summer better than others..

Sat, 04 May 2013 03:05:12 -0500

Weeks after when we met we hardly talked, but when we did we indescribably connected. I felt you knew exactly what I meant. All my life I’ve always felt, I can’t see myself in the future. I felt like I was supposed to die. I never felt like a human, I felt like I was just walking around trying to blend in with the human race. So alone in this town and even out of place in my own body. I still remember how freakishly shy I was when I first saw you. I couldn’t conjure up my words properly and my heart was racing so fast, I swear I could clearly hear it beating. And with every beat I felt as if my heart was ripping through my chest. I was captivated by you. Your presence, the very air you breathed..

Everything’s changed. Both of us have also. Truth is I hate how things have turned out. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be that happy again. If I’ll ever get those feelings again. If I’ll ever feel honestly stable in my mind.

But you made me realize the other side of things. I felt like I was never going to be alone again when I met you. You made me feel like I’m important. All I wanted to say to you is that I love you and that I’ll love you more than anyone else.

Home

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 23:45:39 -0500

I’ve always wanted to space out my life so I’d have happiness to look forward to. I’m in my 20’s, but I can clearly remember how insecure I felt just 2 years ago.
Walking down the halls of my high school, feeling like a total stranger in my own body. I can remember almost everyone. I can remember most memories I’ve had with them. I always believed all i needed in life was to be happy and have something to look forward to. Something to keep my hopes up. As far as i know life isn’t some smooth ride down a hill on a cool bike, but up to now i’ve never kept a happiness that was worthwhile…

Most of the people I surround myself with are in their late 40’s. Most people my age go off to universities, lease houses, have kids and some even getting engaged.
I hate comparing myself to other people I just want to know if what i’m doing is right. I don’t feel like i’m wasting my life, but everyone i know has something going for them… a cool girlfriend, great friends, i just don’t wanna end up alone when i’m in my 70’s …i wanna be surrounded by people i once knew. I wish i were mute..I never want to speak again..everything i’ve ever had with anyone, every friendship, i’ve fucked up single handedly, it was all my fault.

christmas 2008.

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 22:07:38 -0600

it’s pretty cool seeing how everyone i knew from high school is doing. right now i have my old MySpace account pulled up on another tab in my browser. going through old messages from 2006-2008. overwhelmed with emotion, i swear i just felt a hot tear roll down the side of my cheek as i’m typing this very sentence. i remember being hopelessly love for the first time, i remember having a small group of friends, walking through the halls of my school feeling like a total stranger in my own mind, i remember being bullied by all the cholo kids and the black kids. i remember having shit self confidence. i might have not had the best social/school experience but whatever i learned it’s made me into the person i am today. and i guess i was never really able to see through people as i can through a crystal clear glass of water. but i guess what i’m trying to say is, i’m so sorry for what i’ve done and how i’ve alienated you and sometimes i hate myself for it because i never thought i would miss you so much.

HEAVEN'S DOOR

Sun, 01 Jul 2012 14:17:27 -0500

It’s kind of weird knowing that 100 years or so after our deaths virtually no one will remember us. Although, I’m not so worried about it, i’m gonna live my life spaced out so i have happiness to look forward to as I grow older. I don’t understand why some kids I know are so eager to move out, get married or have children when they can hardly take care of themselves. :/
I’ve never questioned whether I should also do the same cause even though I’m …..20…I know I’m not ready for that kind of stuff yet.
((LOL TOO BUSY HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE INSTEAD OF PARTYING YOU GUYS!))

I used to believe that I needed to be with someone, that I didn’t want to die alone. Something I’ve realized these past 3 months is that I don’t need somebody, but I do want somebody. I once knew a girl that told me she couldn’t go without being with someone. Like as if she needed someone..even though she didn’t like them. just a fear of being alone i suppose. Ah, I’m rambling.
…..
ANYWAY.
I was supposed to go the Galveston Island this weekend with a few friends of mine, but lately this weather has been tremendously schizophrenic :’c so instead the guys and I decided to go watch Ted and buy a few comics and vinyl records. (i sound like a total nerd/geek/dork right now don’t i)
I bought two Hall & Oats albums..yeah I’m totally awesome 80’s dude. Oh and I took my kid brother with me.
(He is terribly terrified of birds and inanimate plush animals.)

(He loves hiding in small places.)

(here he is in a fearsome battle to determine which species is superior)
MAN or APE

(He is the apparent victor, Hurray Humans)

(seems as if he’s befriended the locals, a tribe of friendly rubber duckies.)

He also found a Doctor Who ..magazine/comic I think? Well I thought it was rad so I decided to take a picture. It’s a shame few people know about this amazing program. :/ well here in America anyway.

& YES, to answer your question, I DO love my brother very much. XD

March 5, 2012

Mon, 05 Mar 2012 23:29:26 -0600

Today was the best day of my life.

2:08 (02-13-12)

Mon, 13 Feb 2012 02:10:43 -0600

I feel something inside of me. I feel there is something that the world needs to know. They need to know that i’m completely insane. I can’t sleep, the lack of sleep makes it harder for me to control my feelings. I have to let you know how much you mean to me. I wish it were summertime so I can take you somewhere nice and watch the moon together under a tree someplace quiet. And you could rest on my shoulder and I’d whisper cute things in your ear. I’ve got to let you know now how much you mean to me.

the-april-fool: Lost Underworld by ~bluewolf487

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 10:22:42 -0600

the-april-fool:

Lost Underworld by ~bluewolf487

The Present

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 12:00:09 -0600

What honestly is the point of social media? Usually, I enjoy catching up with friends and asking how they are and if all is well and whatnot. but at times..as i read through my news feed and whatever, there are those few instances wherein not all needs to be shared.
The kind of people that make constant posts about everything from tying your shoes to taking a dump because it all needs to be shared. People drain OTHER PEOPLE’S HARD WORK AND CREATIVE ENERGY and made a post about it to exploit themselves to the fake people they couldn’t even stand in high school because they were fake then too but now I want them to see my real talents that truly shine through in my posts like: “Fuck it, Thug life” Truly flocking groundbreaking artistry, amazing shit. And you’ll give up your privacy and freedom to be that fucking ignorant and outright stupid. Switch off Facebook and open your eyes to the real world once again, you might have something to contribute to the world besides cutesie, unoriginal, unpoetical, downright retarded comments about simple day to day events that to any sane person require no detailing or discussion. It’s just Facebook! not a damn priority! I mean, Honestly, when was the last time you watched a sunset or took a walk because you haven’t been as depressed before as you are now? Why do you feel like you hate everyone? WHY are you on Facebook during school & work? is this where your education and tax payer money really black holes?. Outrages claims such as “I lost my girlfriend/boyfriend/husband/wife to facebook.”, “it’s addictive”, “i can’t sleep at night”..people love blaming issues on anyone and anything but themselves. Those who spend time playing games or for whatever reason are “addicted” to Facebook and can’t get away from it, then they have bigger issues to deal with…no normal person will let themselves be so absorbed by something without realizing there is something NOT right about it. It’s just common sense…It’s honestly saddening …what ever happend?

What ever happened to sweet, decent, women who valued their honor instead of using their bodies for...

Tue, 31 Jan 2012 11:36:19 -0600

What ever happened to sweet, decent, women who valued their honor instead of using their bodies for attention?

Synthesizer

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 00:27:38 -0600

I’ve been fine. I love my friends and whoever is a part of my life. You’re in it because you wanted to be, and i’ve let you in. There’s no point in blocking people from your life..unless they’re some mass murderer.

I have work in the morning. What the heck am I still doing up.. Sometimes, I don’t know how much more I have to wait. I know you’re busy with your own life, and I said I’d wait for you :/ but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t consider me..who am I kidding…i’ll always be here to talk to you if you want me to.

I day dream everyday the dreams I believe in. I believe one day you’ll be in my arms. To love and to hold. I need to be more confident and write more.

I’ve been writing stuff and today I watched “Yes Man” it made me realise I should change my points of views and say yes and no to certain situations. Sounds corny but I would love to watch it with you :’) .. Oh! And im half way finished with “Hear Me” we should definitely watch that one together<3 ..

BEST. CHINESE NEW YEAR. EVER.

Tue, 24 Jan 2012 12:13:10 -0600

BEST. CHINESE NEW YEAR. EVER.

Photo

Mon, 23 Jan 2012 09:56:37 -0600

Te tengo

Mon, 16 Jan 2012 01:55:49 -0600

No tengo ni idea de cómo explicar lo que siento . Siento un sentido de determinación . Me siento muy feliz . Me siento tan feliz que necesito una manera de controlar el poder de la tremenda explosión de emoción que siento en mi corazón. Esta semana un nuevo reto surge y estoy decidido a superar . Voy a superar todos los obstáculos . Si debo un día caer. Me levantaré una vez más , sanar mis heridas y luchar. Voy a seguir luchando hasta el final .

I wonder who actually reads/stalks my blog..it would be nice to get likes every once in a while....

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 23:47:02 -0600

I wonder who actually reads/stalks my blog..it would be nice to get likes every once in a while. Just saying.

infinityandbey8nd: I want to be here right now. Nightwaves

Sun, 01 Jan 2012 14:20:50 -0600

infinityandbey8nd:

I want to be here right now.

Nightwaves

I just really like cats okay ..!

Mon, 26 Dec 2011 21:37:59 -0600

I just really like cats okay ..!

i think im starting to believe in angels again.

Wed, 07 Dec 2011 13:15:43 -0600

My best friend, my reason to become a better person, my muse, but most importantly, my love. It sucks thinking these thoughts & I can’t sleep anymore. Not a goodnight’s sleep anyway.. I just really want to know where you are, how you been, if you had something to eat today, the current colour of your shirt. how your day was. i miss you.

And it’s been a long time since we last spoke..

I just want you to know that no matter what happens & the mistakes i make, i’ll always put you first & get you outta harm’s way. you’re the love of my life.

sleepless (10/9/11) 1:47 a.m.

Sun, 09 Oct 2011 01:47:57 -0500

My friends say that I changed. I don’t know what they mean I still feel the same as I did back then, what’s wrong with them. How am I supposed to live when every waking moment I’m thinking of you. There’s nothing I can do, I take one step and ten steps back. I get nowhere.

I wish I was right there, I wish I was with her. But I know she doesn’t care.

Desde Siempre (10/5/11) 2:52 a.m.

Wed, 05 Oct 2011 02:53:05 -0500

I can’t sleep. Last night there was blood in the sink. Blood from my nose. I can’t sleep. Thinking about you. Maybe I shouldn’t love you. I don’t know how you get into me. What’s wrong with me. I need to sleep…

rebeccasugar: Here is the demo for “Oh Fionna,” which Neil...

Tue, 06 Sep 2011 13:50:25 -0500

rebeccasugar:

Here is the demo for “Oh Fionna,” which Neil Patrick Harris sang for the final.

I really wanted NPH for this episode, mostly because I thought he would be a perfect male Bubblegum, but also because I wanted to impress my brother Steven, who was obsessed with the Music Meister from Batman Brave and the Bold at the time.

NPH was AMAZING, he sang the song beautifully, and every line he read was hysterical. That scene where his laugh becomes the Ice Queen’s laugh, he really did that, he laughed his voice up an octave until it matched with Grey DeLisle. It was really incredible.

Here are the chords for Oh Fionna! It was pitch shifted for the final so it might not match the episode version…

C, E7, Am

Dm, G7, C, G7,

C, E7, Am

Dm, G7, C, E7,

(Oh, Oh, Fionna…)

C, E7, Am, A,

Dm, G7, C, C7,

(Oh, Oh, Fionna…)

F, G7, C, A7,

Dm, G7, C, A7,

Dm, G7, C

It was so fun to write a romantic song. I wanted the scene to be very Whole New World, plus the Romani Ranch aliens from Majora’s Mask.

I want to thank Ian Jones-Quartey who helped me write this song, he suggested “you punched me in the heart,” which I pretty much used.

Adam and I put so much love into this ep. It was awesome to take the torch from Natasha, and she and Pen really let us run with it. I was honored to be allowed to put so much of myself into this episode.

THANKS FOR WATCHING!!!